All my life, I’ve been the “quiet girl”.
This has allowed people to constantly mischaracterize me, and even like me because of something they’ve projected onto me that isn’t even really me. I’m polite, I’m quiet, I’m shy, and I always do what I’m told.
But that doesn’t mean I don’t have opinions.
I understand that many times in life, an opinion isn’t necessary or helpful. When a friend’s talking about their love life, they want you to listen, not offer opinions. When someone asks you your thoughts on a political situation you don’t know a lot about, it’s better to ask questions and learn rather than start spewing out misinformed opinions. When someone clearly is ranting and has a very strong opinion about something, saying your opinion is definitely not going to change their mind.
I’m not saying to shut up and keep your opinion to yourself. I’m saying that I say that to myself far too often.
I’m afraid of rocking the boat. I’m afraid of alienating people. But if somebody is going to dislike me because of my opinions, then I wouldn’t want to be their friend anyways. I know the price to pay for being outspoken is that not everyone will like you – and everyone liking me is one of my more unrealistic goals that I live by.
I’m also scared of being wrong. I’m scared of not realizing something, and speaking out before I have all the facts, even when I think I do. I’m scared I’ll later change my mind, and that stating my opinion now binds me to it.
I’m scared of seeming annoying. I hate when you’re just trying to enjoy something, and everyone has to have an opinion about it. I hate when someone who hates teen dramas spends an hour talking about how stupid they are when they know you like them, and I don’t want to be that person.
But I’m tired of staying quiet. And I think this blog is going to be a good place to actually start voicing my opinions in a neutral context where nobody has to listen if they don’t want to. I need to learn how to actually speak my mind – so that I can move towards being the person I am in my mind in actual real life. I’m far too afraid of seeming mean or unlikeable, or having people laugh at me. But you know what, who cares? It’s my blog and I’ll rant if I want to.
So get ready for some more opinion posts by yours truly. Probably nothing groundbreaking, but you never know!